hi guys, its the first day of APRIL 2013. getting excited? dope! :)
Sorry again for not being able to post, i guess my hands had just been too lazy too blog nowadays. Nevertheless, i shall start repost as my days as a student shall end in a 11 days. Its been one hell of a year starting from 2012. A lot had happen, many things have changed, several people had been damaged. i guess things in life just work in a mysterious ways.
The past remains the past, the present stays present, the future awaits us. that's all that matters. i won't be posting about the past, i'll focus more on the present and future. So currently, I've been swamped with final examinations. its my LAST semester of diploma. not a BIG deal right? hahaha. Here's the issue, i want to finish my diploma as soon as possible but i don't want to continue to degree directly. why did i say that? well, i kinda feel tired of waking up everyday aiming to go to class everyday and then studying for examination. that part of life i had been doing since primary school. what i want is a NEW adventure that i could learn, explore and understand more on life. this is the real deal! but i feel like i'm learning schematic deal lately. there's just lack of passion in my heart.
Which is why i applied for the Overseas Universities. i kinda feel like staying in one place just makes my heart lose more and more passion. the way of thinking is too limited, then the peoples i met were kinda lame. All they wanted to do was hang around, having fun without thinking the consequences, not thinking about the futures. i don't want that! i want to travel the world, learn new experiences, moving on with my life. and someday, i will want to marry my girlfriend Farah Dianah. i mean, i just don't want to be the person who lived all my life in the same country. i want the experiences. and i will do my very best to get it. if not Degree, then Master. After i marry Farah, insyaallah, amin! :)
today marks the day where i shall begin to be productive and active. i won't taking my old behaviour during diploma to bring forward to the future, because i think my life is the highest boredom of all life. It won't get any better than this. Bye ;)
hey peeps, its been a while. again. but hey, i'm still alive and kicking it ;) haha.
so here's what happen to me :
-i started my semester with changes of class and move out of the old house into new house
-i met and know new friends and classmates
-i studied and studied and studied
-i went out with my girlfriend, fara dianah like really a lot since its her last semester
-i also went to a trip to penang island with my classmate as an assessment
-i finish my assignment within time
-i had my final examinations 3 weeks ago
-i helped my girlfriend pack her whole things since she finished her diploma
-i had romantic last minit dates with my girlfriend before going back to KL
-i frequently visit my girlfriend when she is working
-i went and hangout with wanie and anis since i owe them that much since i haven't been able to do so before
-i also went and hangout with zaana and her brother, akmal.
-i haven't hangout with haana and my chinese pal since they are kinda busy
-i deleted my facebook and focusing on twitter and instagram
-i went to jb after few days when the holidays started and live there around 2 weeks
-i'm going to jb starting 25th till the 30th of november
-i'm taking the plane back to kl on the 30th of november and one of my bestfriends, zaana will pick me up at subang airport
-i learn more about traditional cooking from my mum
-i take care of my mum since she's sick
-i upgraded my laptop's os from window 7 home premium to window 8 pro
-i also upgraded my antivirus software
-i take a worm killing medicine to solve my stomach problems with zaana accompanied me
that's about it ;) the summaries of my 5th semester. not much right? but it will do :)
Today is the day my final examination for semester 5 started. its a good day but not the best one. so how's my paper? i gonna say its fine but since i know how i answered, terrible -___-" how i wish i have studied more. but no regrets there, just gonna pray for the best ;)
Its been a while since I've last blog and i don't think anyone would want to read this blog except for my best friends and my Baby Fara. so no pressure there ;) haha
Lately, I've been wondering a lot about my future. it all seems a bit far away. next semester my girlfriend won't be here in Dungun by then, my best friends won't be here with me, and then, there's my classmates -___-" i worried about future. haih! but nonetheless, i'm praying the best i could. everything will be answered in time :)
its been a long semester, i'm tired of all the studying, i'm tired of the food here, i hate to work. so, please, final examination. okay? :) hehe
never did i thought off moving on to next phase of my life. its been one hell of a ride. from the beginning until the end, i never did saw this was coming. i was perfectly happy with the life i have. until came the day. and it changed me. i never want to feel that way again. so i changed. to be the better man, this is what i can do.
now, whole life is waiting for me. to explore and began my adventure. with my love ones of course. i'll keep posting, and waiting at the end of the line is serenity. i wished my life would be like the ones in kingdom heart ( fantasy gameland) but unfortunately, i live in reality. where nothing is the same as in fantasy land. i am tired, i am bored and i am finish. i have nothing to achieve in life, only wanting to spending it with the one i really love. i love fara, she's really is special. whenever i thought of she leaving me, i cry. deep in my heart, i always felt that. but i try staying strong. its hard, but i'm doing my best. i will not leave her. only death shall break us apart. she's a part of me now, i can't stay away. not ever. she is my life. my soul, my only one. FARAH DIANAH, I LOVE YOU.
Hey, its been a while. again, sorry with the unstable post lately. been busy with work lately. okay, so here's the summarized story that happened during this holiday part of my life :
a) starting holiday break, i enjoyed myself by spending time with my baby sweetheart Fara. we went out to several places and watch movies.
b) then, i spend time with my best friends, went shopping with my family, do a lot of movie downloading.
c) then, after a month, i went to Johor to accompany my dad. While fulfilling the time, i worked there for a while at PFC Engineering Sdn Bhd where i met new working colleague.
d) after a month, i stopped working and came back to KL.
so now, here i am, back to posting new entry. And when i look back, the past and present are quite the similar. In the past, i tend to be left alone, just trying to find purposes in life. Currently, i'm still being left alone, still trying to find new purposes in life. I guess, nothing has changed in the end. i'm looking forward to the day i do find my purpose, i wonder who i'll become. that is for me to know, and for you find out. ;)
and hey, i survived relationship longer than 5 months now, and currently still counting until the day i marry the girl of my dreams. she's the one after all, i want her. i want Fara Dianah to be my wife. and without her, i'm lost. :)
Talking about serviced apartments sure brings back a lot of memories of the ones i used to stay when i was smaller. Back then, everything such as the food services, the room design and relaxation feels which could not be experience back at home are available. Even though it is a little behind when compared room design with hotels, but it is still much more comfortable.
So why serviced apartments? If you ask me, i say it’s easy. How often do we find a good serviced apartment that charge reasonable price rooms with good services which are on par with hotels rooms? i would say so often since most serviced apartments especially the one in KL charge the amount regarding to their good services and rooms according to reasonable price. i find that its most breeze in a way to find such services are available.
Also, having access to all the things we don't have back at home could sure give us high pleasures. Not everyone could afford to have things such as air conditioner or good washing machines. Well, most of the serviced apartments offer these things. It simplifies our living and at affordable cost too. No worries there for extra payment ;) haha
Businessman and corporate peoples find that serviced apartments are home oriented and more spacious as compared to hotels room. This is pretty common since they have worked their asses off during work time and come back home to relax and enjoy.
Judging from experience that I've been to overseas, KL Service apartments are the best one in Asia. It is hard to believe that foreigners or locals would have difficulties in finding a good service apartment in KL. All you have to do is log on to iBilik and search for the one you like. It is as easy as pie. Am I right? hahaha
Overall, I think that serviced apartments, especially the ones in KL areas rocks since we have more choices on accommodation besides hotels and resorts.
its the end of semester 4 for me, but the beginning of final examinations. its time to prove how much have i learn this semester. when i recap all my subjects,and the result is that i only remembered quarter of what I've learn. feeling kinda sad since I'm not always like this. i guess semester 4 is kinda the worst and the best semester. why? the worst is about the surrounding around me, I'm not comfortable with the way I'm living. i can't focus on my study when I'm at home. its kinda hard when you live in a house lived by 12 people. if my result this semester fall, I'll move out and find better home. and the best part, i got a special person who is really suited with me, love me for who i am and appreciate everything I've done for her. being with her makes me a better person. we studied together, eat together, have fun together, suffer together. she's my soul mate and I'm grateful for getting a wonderful person in my life. but overall, I'm okay this semester. just need to do something about the surrounding. a wise lecturer told me yesterday, its okay to be selfish right now because I'm still studying and the need to satisfy my need comes first. its been a while since I've been selfish. i guess it will be difficult, but that's the thing i need right now. but i do know that my selfishness does not involve my gf and best friends, because i need them. that's my selfishness.
and semester break plans? don't know yet, depends on my family. if they wish i work, I'm working and if they wish i sit at home, I'm sitting at home ;) hahaha. but i want to work, because time is limited and i got to find more working experience :) i guess I'm still immature after all :)
Things that we do in real life, comes from the mind. the mind was trained since we were small and young, starting from our own bloodline. it is rare to see children these days not equip with the ability to adapt in this world. some may not see the point of giving information to children since they are still small, but it is vital to face today's reality of the world. 'survival of the fittest' is a key word spoken by wise man i used to know. he quote that nobody shall be able to face today's reality without the instinct of survival to do so. sometimes, instinct can't be learn though books but it is learn to experience. from the day we are born, until the day we die, we are constantly learning new things. things that we don't realize could be important to survive. which is why, i opened my mind, my heart to look things at different perspectives. because reality is like this. it is cruel, it is cold, and no opportunities will knock at your door freely. nothing is free in this world today, so the only way to face today's reality, is by surviving. ;)
its official, i have fall in love. i have liked someone since last year and now she's mine. she's the best person for me, i will never changed my feeling toward her. she's the one. she's really the one. she makes me want to change to be a better person, a person that is qualify for her. i always felt that i don't, but I'm changing. and i hope in the future, i will be. i love you bu, don't leave me when it gets hard, or complicated. because you are my soul mate, my passion and my future. i may not be perfect, you may not be perfect, but together, we can be. not as complete as in would seem, but the nearest we could is enough :) insyaallah, amin! ;)
its been a while since i've updated my blog, so sorry ;)
so what's new? well, none actually. currently, i have only one desire and that is to spend time with loves one. yes people, not those phony types but actual ones. only few are in that list and the top 5 on that very list are :
1) Farah Dianah
2) NurFarzaana
3) NurFarhaana
4) Wanie Arshad
5) Adrian Chua
Thank you so much for being at my side, supporting me all the way. really love u guys especially Bu Syg :)
Hello peeps, just updating my current post. Remember how I used to said, that I don't want a long relationship? I wasn't telling the whole truth. The truth is, I was afraid. Afraid of being taken down by feelings. Its my trauma. It is all because of my past. Ever since I was small, I'm always alone. I don't have lots of friends, because I'm not exactly the best person to be friends with. so I choose the easiest way to deal with these, I move on and choose not to be in a long relationship.
But ever since F appear in my life, everything changes. Its like whatever she said anything, my heart keeps pounding so hard trying to persuade me to follow her. Before I told her, being in a relationship is what I couldn't do. but now, all I WANT is to be in a LONG relationship with her. I guess, I'm can change. I just need the right person to do it with. Now I want to spend the rest of my life with her. That is what my heart told me. So now, I pray very hard everyday that we will stay be each other side for a long. Insyaallah, amin.
F, if you are reading this, just know that every time you think about negative things, I never hate it, i just want to change it. I know that you have experienced a lot of bad things in the past and i can't do much to remove all those past away. Just know that, right now, I'm here for you. and I hope you would too. no judgement involve. and know that, when I told you I've move on, I really have. all my ex girlfriends are just friends. not more than that. know that you are my first real love. you are the one i have been waiting for all these year. never leave my side. I promise I won't leave you. Happy one month anniversary! :)
Hi everyone, this post is about F. she is the one. she meant very much to me. I think she is the most SPECIAL person in my life besides my family. without her, I didn't know what to do because she's the one. I'm deadly serious about what i wrote because this is my true feelings. love you F :)
I don't know how I should change her bad habit about thinking negative. I guess she's that way for a reason. I don't want to force her but at the same time, I want to know what's troubling her. what should I do? i guess i'll wait until she's ready. its been a while since I'm being honest about my feelings. its because people usually don't trust me enough for me to do that. so i always avoid in telling the truth. F show me that only honesty can solve most problems. and that's what i did. i told her the truth. but right now, she's not doing the same. am i that bad? am i that untrustworthy? i don't know. but looking at the situations, i guess i am.
i'm sorry F if you can't trust me, i guess i'm still the black sheep in anything i do. but know this, i never once did lie to you and i don't intend to start. i want to be in a long relationship with you but i can't do it if you are not with me. be honest with me okay F? i hope and pray you do.
everyday is a bliss, the title of this post. so why is this so important? because its my feeling, my specialised feeling. its not very common about me to felt this way, because I'm usually more playful and the kind of guy who has no feelings. but recently, life has been better and kinder to me. I'm always accompanied by my loves one, less stress during study time, and so happy with F. God know how much I'm in love with this girl named Fara. she's smart, she's cute, and she's mine. No one is to touch her, okay? ;) hee
by the way, its been a while since I updated my last post. so why? the feeling of laziness lingered in this heart of mine and squashed the diligent side. I guess that laziness is so common nowadays when everyday is full of bliss. gotta to beat this feeling, so help me okay peeps? :) hee
I know i should be sleeping but i feel remorse since F has fallen sick. i had just came back from seeing her and the look on her face was just terrible. I guess its not easy when you're looking at someone you love when she's sick. Not because she's not pretty but its because she looks like she in deep pain. Even though she kept on going telling me she's fine but i know she's not.
F, if you're not healthy. so am I. It may not seen physically but mentally, it does. so be a dear and try to eat some medicine. its not tasty but at least it can help cure faster. My feelings toward you are so deep that whenever you are sick, i felt it too. so please, try to change that habit of yours hating taking medicine for my sake? I know its too much to ask you to do this but i really hope you can. I love you F, and i pray that you'll get well soon. Insyaallah :)
Salam, and hello. So another year has just end and I actually felt nothing. what does it mean? means that a year have passed by, I learned a lot of lessons and i practically changed myself to be a better person. but deep down inside, I felt nothing. To me, new year is just another year to me. I'm sorry anyone felt like this post is an insult since some people celebrates new year eve but sincerely, I'm not one of them. At least for now. maybe its because I haven't really felt what is it like to actually celebrating one. I don't know all this stuff but I do hope in the future, I will ;)
And before last year ended, I met F. she's pretty, she's amazing, she's the person i want to spend time with and she's mine. I always pray that this girl will be the love of my life (she has become one to me), and actually be there beside me every time. FYI, I'm changing slowly to be a better and serious person when it comes to relationship. The reason is because this year I'm turning 20, I'm not getting any younger and I don't want to keep playing with relationships. I want to gain more maturity and be more independence. I am not joking, I seriously am changing. so
dear readers , help me if you can by providing me advice if you could . I don't know much how to handle a girl in a long term relationships and I'm seriously in love with this one. so help me :)
And dear F, I like you just the way you are. Like I told you, you are worth my time and soul. so don't say that you trouble me. I'm not the kind of guy who would waste his time for some petty reasons. I do it because I want to and because I care. and right now, you meant so much to me. every second I do, I think of you. and I hope you do too. so thank you love for being at my side every time :)
is she my soul mate? is she the one I've been waiting all this time? the answer is i don't know. i mean, the world is full of uncertainty. it is cruel and full of crap. but the main issue is about her. is she the one? the answer is i don't know.
but one thing I do know, is that I'm happy with her by my side. she calms me down. and the way she looks at me, is like I'm the only thing that matter. I'm touched. thanks Ms F, for being at the sideline, supporting me. I'm not good with words and literature, so I'll prove it with my actions :)
hi, this post is going to be a little bit different. i met someone new and she's an interesting girl. problems? well, i don't know yet. i mean, we're just became friends. and its through facebook. i know its not how i usually get to know a girl but something about her just attracted me. so we chatted at the IM, and i build up the confidence to ask her number. and she did gave me her number, so we chatted. until 2 days ago, i met her. upfront. i thought she'd be taller but its okay, she's cuter shorter :) we talked a bit and i now know her a bit. i want to find out more about this girl, she's really interesting. so lets call her Ms F :)
real name is Haikal but call me Kal, 20 turning 21, still green and needs more experience in life, dreams of travelling, love Fara Dianah binti Abd Rahman with all my heart, treasure all my friends especially my best friends (you know who you are), hate people who back stab and acts like my friends. So,fakers can go die dropdead ;)
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